deciphering me?

I'm thinking this alone may be more than 50 pounds.... I should go to publix and check.

The worst part is that that was only my shirts and dresses. I'm going to have to slim down this crazy process....

PS please note that everything on my bed from the first picture of the last post is what is now in my space bag. which is now in my black suitcase.

the beginnings of packing.

I need good packing music. Right now I'm jamming to a bit of everything, but nothing feels right. Nothing makes me feel upbeat and efficient and capable. This is intense. This packing stuff. As you can see by the pictures, so much packing has been done...not really.

How do I fit all this stuff in my 2 suitcases? How do I decipher what needs to go?! How do I decide which whats I should withhold?

I think I should listen to Brook Fraser's deciphering me. I will. Here I go.

Why I'm doing what I'm doing.

Very few of us debate with the sordid and evil and wrong, but we do debate with the good. It is the good that hates the best, and the higher up you get in the scale of the natural virtues, the more intense is the opposition to Jesus Christ. "They that are Christ's have crucified the flesh" - it is going to cost the natural in you everything, not something. Jesus said - "If any man will be My disciple, let him deny himself," i.e., his right to himself, and a man has to realize Who Jesus Christ is before he will do it. Beware of refusing to go to the funeral of your own independence.

The natural life is not spiritual, and it can only be made spiritual by sacrifice. If we do not resolutely sacrifice the natural, the supernatural can never become natural in us. There is no royal road there; each of us has it entirely in his own hands. It is not a question of praying, but of performing. --Oswald Chambers

When he calls I run to my funeral of independence. Waterloo. Sydney. Hillsong. Meritan Apartments. I can't just sacrifice something, it must be everything.